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September 4th, 2011
After almost a month I finally raised the energy to go downstairs and dig through all of my stuff stored away in the basement. At first, trying to reconcile the stuff from two years of life into an entirely different life I'd set on pause was a bit of a challenge. Not to mention, that life had pretty much given me my own household, and besides as a fresh college graduate I still hadn't dealt with the life I'd led before I grew into the person I am today. Combine that with my being exhausted with traveling so much in the Japan experience and feeling desperate to purge myself of excess baggage and you get...well...a clusterfuck.
But I'm feeling better. A little more capable every day. To be honest, once I got my hands on it and stopped feeling overwhelmed I began to OWN that basement. It's been shockingly easy to clear things out. Old junk I'd held on to out of nostalgia, fear, or insecurity flew right into the trash bin. I'm not that person anymore. I can get rid of mediocre things without worrying about whether or not I'll have the finances or methods to replace them with something better. My priorities are different. It's not so much that I'm throwing away my past or devaluing my old life, just that I only need to keep a couple My Little Pony toys instead of the whole damn 40 pony collection. I'll keep my best art and interior design projects for the memories...the rest of it I'll salute one last time and toss it.
It feels good. Owning your possessions instead of letting them own you makes a huge difference in one's sense of independence and self-satisfaction.
But I'm feeling better. A little more capable every day. To be honest, once I got my hands on it and stopped feeling overwhelmed I began to OWN that basement. It's been shockingly easy to clear things out. Old junk I'd held on to out of nostalgia, fear, or insecurity flew right into the trash bin. I'm not that person anymore. I can get rid of mediocre things without worrying about whether or not I'll have the finances or methods to replace them with something better. My priorities are different. It's not so much that I'm throwing away my past or devaluing my old life, just that I only need to keep a couple My Little Pony toys instead of the whole damn 40 pony collection. I'll keep my best art and interior design projects for the memories...the rest of it I'll salute one last time and toss it.
It feels good. Owning your possessions instead of letting them own you makes a huge difference in one's sense of independence and self-satisfaction.